Confused

At twelve I fell in love

With another girl

Kept it a secret

She was my world

At thirteen it happened again

Only this time she was straight

She broke my heart, crushed my mind

And made me wait and wait

Then I told my friends

About my sexuality

They seemed ok with it

But secretly denied me

I told my parents

About how I felt

How my life was going

My mum was fine, really sweet

But my dad just said “You’re growing”.

Then I came out to my year group

The bullying and harsh words begun

I got teased and picked on

What had I done?

I got a girlfriend

We weren’t the perfect match

Then she dumped me for another girl

I’d been tricked, there was no catch

I fell in love with a bisexual girl

Who lead me to believe she liked me back

But then she dropped me, said she liked someone else

My life was empty, bleak and black

So I trudged on and gave up on love

After all I’d only had luck that was bad

I felt lonely, sick of life

And very very sad

I had a few crushes

Along the way

But none that exciting

I can recall today

Then in the summer

I met a boy

I fell in love with him

And I felt like a toy

Stringed along, used

For so long

It was time to put a stop to it

And keep holding on

So I told this boy I liked him

And he said he wanted to meet up

So now we are kinda dating

And I hope I get good luck

Coz my luck has been awful

Cruel harsh and cold

Now I might have a boyfriend

As I’m fifteen now, quite old

So if he kisses me

And I don’t like it

I might be a lesbian still

But I could be bisexual

That’s the question

That’s the deal