Remember

Remember he's not gone

Remember he's still here

When you fake a smile

When you brush away a tear

Remember the good times

Let them fill you up with joy

It's easier said than done

When your heart's broken like a toy

Remember he's around

In the heat of the sun

Smiling down at you all

He's the energy in a run

He's on the track, cheering

He's by your side at night

He's with you every moment

So don't give up this fight.

The Fight

It’s gonna be hard

I always knew it would

It’s gonna be tough

I won’t feel very good.

But after a while

The panic will disappear

The worry will shift

They’ll be no more fear.

It’ll be worth it in the end

I’ll look back and smile

When I know that I’ve tackled

The biggest thing for a while.

I won’t give up this fight

I’ll be the winner in this race

Don’t expect me to crumble

Watch this smile on my face.

A Message To My Diary

You started off my friend

Held out your hand

Offered me a shoulder to cry on

And ears to listen with

You became destructive

You took over my life

And had me by the throat

I had no control any more

You deceived me

You tricked me

Confused my tired mind

And drained me of strength

I’m claiming you back

Gaining control once again

You’re no longer my enemy

And you never were my friend.

Screwed Up At Seventeen

Well you managed to screw up

The best part of a year

Wrapped yourself in misery

Self-obsession, hate and fear

Turned people against you

Caused embarrassment and shame

I won’t make those mistakes

Ever, ever again

Plastering your life over YouTube

Facebook and your blog

Thinking people cared

Saw through the damaged fog

I cringe when I look back

At how I acted last year

The ways I showed my pain

Instead of shedding a tear

I put myself away

In the asylum for the loons

I lost my mind, lost my pride

Far too young, way too soon

I’m paying for the damage

Clearing up the mess

I’m done with telling stories

No more need to confess

Don’t judge me on my past

I’m not that person any more

Accept me as I am

With all my quirks and flaws.

Fish Out Of Water

Like a fish out of water

Your eyes bulge
With the intense fear.
You don't belong out here
In this scary world
But instead back there
In the frozen room
Where time stands still
And madness runs free.